CLANDESTINE

When it’s a feeling.

Of being smuggled into yourself,

for a temporary ( sorry) eternity.

Looking for bits of bits, yourself,

rummaging with papers on the train,

having exhausted any chance

to sense poetry in being blown in the wind,

but having exhausted maybe even exhaustion

and, what after? Going on rummaging

with the badly folded papers of yourself

on the train, while it clanks to heaven

whose door was closed time out of mind,

while you have been frowning, smiling too,

fumbling through lives, scrutinizing

illegal corners popping up in the famine,

the subtle famine of feelings, of being really here,

a few papers of yours fumbled on among chores,

and air blown from chinks by your elbow

on the swarming away-countenance of the train window,

in your disentangled sameness ( sorry) of days,

an eternal mobile vibrating, past-caring in the pocket,

the dream of a touch-screen flashing, forlorn,

in the business of silence,

in the queue from absence to absence.

 

Having lost all ghosts. You,

just unasked, undue.

So simply, so normally uncared-for.

On the many roads.